always.

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

wheex..ponx physics remedial..ahahaha...chao lazi n sianx...dun feel lyk goin aniwhere 2dae...plus it ish raining nau..n i m broke..sadd...jux nau jux met korr..hehex...sho happi tuu c hym...nid tuu pass hym his gundam seed comics mahs..den he goin hme frm skol takin 163 sho shun lu...mi n korr nau tong yi tiao chuan...both got cough...he heard mi coughin siax..lOlx...i got cough sho loud arhs?=x he walked mi tuu de gate cux raining mahs den he got umbrella..althou ish jux a short dist,i reali appreciate dat..wheex..sho sweet of hym..x) haix...nau in my family all my siblings includin mi got cough lors..all sick..hahas...mine ish daa longest..my cough has been goin on fer abt 3 wks le lors..noOoo..mux quickly recover if not SYF die!!nxt thurs lehs..hau can sickk..mux b in tiptop condition..=x yeahh..jiayouu tuu mie!!

wEbEr kOrr rAwkx!!x))

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

haix...2dae pe tym ran 2.4...it was unsatisfactory 4 mi..my timing was HORRIBLE!!!althou everi1 pass but not everi1 took de test..i took 16.13 2 run 4 pathetic rounds...shitt...it deproved tremendously...last yr i onli took 15+..-.- haix...n i spent ALOT of my tym stopin 2 tie my hair becux de it kips on gettin lose...i m gna retake it nxt wk n i SWEAR i m NEVER gna use tt rubber band when i m runnin EVER again..oh manx..waste sho much of my tym..ish lyk i run 4 awhile den stop n tie..run,stop,tie,run,stop,tie,run,stop,tie...ah dots..pissed off wibx myself..jim was lyk a coach dere kip on tellin mi tuu run faster..lOlx...hahas...mux retake nxt wk!!i dun care!!althou my legs r nau achin..climb stairs can die de..no stairs..no no..

fook..i lost my damn calculator..oh manx..daa sharp cal...shitt...ytd i jux realise tt it was lost when i m packin 2 go 4 my maths tuition..oh manx..den when i cuame skol 2dae n try tuu find it in de physics lab..it was GONE!!!noOoo!!!sadd...i dun 1na waste my money buyin it again 4 $18..i m BROKE...budden i cannot live without my cal(4 maths lessons)..sho hau??hurrs...arbish...hu can donate tuu mi a sharp cal?lOlx...
okayy..2dae sectionals..ermx..we had tuu focus on de dynamics..syf ish jux nxt thurs!!oh no!!!jin zhang shi ke..budden we lyk quite slack i mux sae..den 2dae de peeps lyk all in bad mood de..tink jas oso stress up..den lyk strt scoldin/lecturing de whole section of altos..sighh...dreadful..den de guys lyk dun care one..after de sectionals sort of lyk a debrief..jessica was lyk scoldin us cum de bois..sae wad syf cumin le den stil got ppl diao de SL n stuffs lidatt..den she cried...i was sho shocked..den i lyk dun dare c her cry..dunno y..can hear frm her voice..haix...y ish tis happenin...idiotic dae..

janson simply sarkk okayy..walaux..idiotic big flirt...n chao irritating too..mre irritating den a mosquito..no..i shld sae a mosquito ish 100 tyms betta den u..i cannot help but feel disgusted n irritated at tis kinda ppl..oh manx...smoke cumin out frm my head...hurrs...speak tuu tis kinda ppl, u mux b FRANK..jux str away tell hym in de face wad u feel...u wil surely feel much betta..trust mi..(advice 2 daa jie) i m breaking all ties wibx dat guy frm 2dae onwards..

Sunday, March 27, 2005

sickk...hurrs...stupidd cough..haix..sianx..rushin skol work..nau got one show volcano..quite nice siax..abit lyk de day after tmr..lOlx..slacker..nickie..guys..poof...

btw..changin skin soon if haf de tym..

hurtt`___what is happening tuu mie??

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

hurrs..nau rushin 4 geog n ss projects..stupidd yi zhi mao..walaux..chao stress siax after de hols..plus i damn suay..haix..go bang head on de wall..*bang*=x goin bonkers..shitt..dun tell mi 2dae haf 2 slp late again..hurrs..cant stand tis..2dae maths lesson saw he hu cannot be named wibx his gang dey all walk pass..dey walk until 3/2 niax den kana caught by ms ng den she kal em baq n lyk reprimanded em..den after dat dunno where dey go lers..nvr c em liaox..sadd...haix..aniwae..choir tym sectionals was slackk..stayed baq 4 nth..haix..da jie nvr cum siax..hope her leg ish alright..

butterflies in my stomach,

heart thumping super fast,
this can't be good..

sweet n sadness came upon mie all of a sudden`tangled up in my own emotions..

Sunday, March 20, 2005

daa more i tried tuu be strongg, daa more i kept getting hurtt..
daa more i tried tuu forget euu, daa more i kept thinking of euu..

i m goin NUTS..

nvr break wibx ur stead jux becux of another person or else ur steadd will feel lyk shit..jux an advice given by teacher marcus..

Friday, March 18, 2005

sighh..2dae outing was a disaster manx..hurrs...waste my time siax..we spent de whole dae doin NTH lors..absolutely nth..if i knew it wld turn out tis way,i shld haf gone out wibx ivan..at least betta..it was lyk a outin wibx de 5ff ppl..yuppx..got lee ying,michelle,amanda,shi yun,tee chuan,ozy,aik wee,arthur and ronson...yuppx..n mi oso lars..we yue hao 1pm meet at bishan mrt station dere..den until abt 1.40pm den at last everibodi cum liaox..jiu go cine lors..saw jacinda n xiu zhen lehs..den we went tuu de toliet dere cux jenard wanted tuu tie her hair..omg..it stinkss lyk hell manx..den we saw in 1 of de cubicles we saw a pile of ~~shit~~ dere..ewww..disgusting manx..kaes..ohh yahh..jenard becum slim alot..much prettier..shiyun n amanda oso..amanda reali looks lyk model lors..reali!!shiyun oso..mre slim n prettier lers..i stil can c de expression n reaction on de guys when dey saw amanda..aik wee practically jumped up lors..dey all xia dao siax..hahas..sho funni...after dat we went 2 cine..den after a long decision,dey go burger king eat..den when de gers went up 2 buy de tickets(we wanted tuu watch de series of unfortunate events mahs) den found out dat there were onli seperate seats for 11 ppl lars..ish lyk all kana seperated lors..den we wanted tuu ask ozy dey all sho nvr buy firx..den drag drag drag until de tym slots of de movies r lyk sho late..oh my goshh...hurrs..den ish lyk in de end we nvr get tuu watch ani movie..went tuu ps mahs..budden de tym slot ish lyk sho late sho de bois decided tuu go pale pool...den in de end wait 4 sho long until michelle go hme lers..den we oso lyk 1na go hme lers...walaux..de bois r sho wishy washy siax..cant stand em..hurrs..ish lyk go grp outin..den de guys lyk everitym walk their own way one..wtf lors..damn pissed off wibx sum ppl...until mi n lee ying go take bux hme de tym den ozy dey all go watch movie de son of de mask...arbish!!!!guo fen lehs..dey lyk at firx sae 1na go watch movie after dinner den another moment sae dun wan liaox..den after we go liao den dey at last decided tuu go watch movie..walaux..i was lyk sho angry..den i kal ozy n 'scolded' hym...hurrs...chao angry siax..wad ish de problem wibx euu guys??suan lers..wasted my tym..dun care wors..dey owe us a movie..tmr goin 2 watch sponge bob wibx jamie n nickk..chao sadd ivan n junhao cannot make it..nooOOo..sobxx...hols ish such a disaster manx..bang muaii head on de wall..hw sucks..havnt do finish yet lors..gonna perish after skol reopen...ballade pour adeline rawkx..so soothing...can calm mi down at least..

*everything for euu`

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

yeah!!jux came baq frm choir camp 2dae..hmm..hau shld i put it..de camp althou ish a training camp..it was quite fun lars..yuppx..usual stuffs lyk singing n plae game..budden i reali enjoyed myself..not enuf slp siax..lOlx..kaes..hmm...de camp food was okayy..betta den last yr de..n we had 2 lyk bath in de bois toliet 4 2 days..cux de gers toliet was flooded..de water was lyk ankle deep lors..hau 2 bath..lyk mini swimming pool laidatt..hahas...a few guys(not frm choir de) fa xian we were in de bois toliet den dun dare cum in pee..=x hahas..sighh..eyes goin 2 clse liaox sho i m goin 2 make tis short n sweet...de zhong dunno wad guy cum n lyk conduct us 4 2 tyms..he ish quite gd lars i mux sae..yuppx..we even sang at de sprial staircase at nite 2 welcum miss soo baq..yuppx..she came baq n brought potato chips 4 us..hau sweet...wahahas..haix..go camp eat supper..fat liao lars...hurrs..sumre stil mux go remedial..i nvr even bring a single bk dere lors..hau i noe i can go remedial..haix...den dunno y my bio prac bk lost lors..walaux..i hand in den nvr get baq..hurrs..den de teacher stil tell mi go buy a new one n re-copi again..walaux..sho ma fan..waste money, paper, ink n time lors...deciding which mp3 player 2 buy..any suggestions??

pls don take my love for yoo for granted```

Friday, March 11, 2005

ytd went 2 be de host for north zone b division soccer tournament prize presentation or rather accompany jamie go..hahas..yuppx..b4 dat choir was a 'disaster' manx..i nearly cried..all dat happi bdae song lars..sing until 1na cry liaox...walaux..ish realli CANNOT smile lors...xiao bu chu lai u noe..hurrs...yvonne was GREAT..wOw!!she ish such gd actress..her acting skills chao pro lors..wheex..hahas..4/5 skit was very very very shiok siax...jie shi write de skit one lers...chao pro..JIE SHI RAWKX!!!wahahas..kaes..baq 2 de soccer thingy..we took a taxi dere..jamie save mi frm de punishment..woots..ahahas..shorie dawn...mr ling paid 4 de taxi fare..shiok bahs..kaes..den jamie was de host..it was de finals between A.I.SS n Fuchun sec..fuchun sec de ppl(supporters n soccer players)were chao enthu siax..reali lors..when dey score one goal de ppl was lyk screaming lyk siao n one of de malay ger was lyk taking dere skol flag n run..yuppx...de guest of honour was mr aide iskandar..hahas..yupx..n mr tan--~~chicken breast~~ was dere..he was de rep of soccer dunno wad thingy convenor...bad memory lars mi..okayy..4th place was marsling sec..sihan skool siax..=)) hahas..den 3rd-riverside..runner-up:A.I.S.S n CHAMPION was FUCHUN SEC!!hahas..when dey won dey were verh wild lors..screaming lyk nobody's business...jamie had 2 literaily screamm out de skol name siax..our skol ppl was dere meaning shiuan2,weiling,fionne dey all u noex...npcc ppl oso dere..after dat mr ling gave us money 2 take taxi go hme..sho gd!!hahas...budden jamie wanted 2 go tanglin mall 2 meet her mum sho dat she can fetch us hme..den we were lyk walk here n dere until we ask sum1 den noe dat we r walking de wrng way!!hurrs,,n de signboard dere got state lors..big big words de..<-----TANGLIN ROAD omg!!hurss..nvmm..jian fei dae..yuppx..den we walk all de way up/down until we saw a bux stp den we decided 2 take a bux dere..reach dere le den jamie mummy nvr pick up her fone lors..when we in a taxi ler den she kal..haiyoo...den go hme i 4get wad i doo lerx..lOlx..de usual stuffs bahs...

2dae half dae..mrs lai totally SARKK..de beauty paegent(??) was sho diulian..hurss...plus yy go ask mi dat qn..hau he expect mi 2 qns?bcux my muumy dun allow lars..or bcux it ish against my religion..nvr tot of dat at dat tym..fan ying chi dun de wo..okayy..after skol went j8..learnt dat dennis ish dere watching boogeyman..scary siax..saw doreen,alison,ruth n jas..ruth go pick her lil bro siax...sho cute..x)i m offically BROKE...noOoOo!!cannot watch movie liaox..cux i went 2 buy comic..i stil nid money 2 buy another bk..hurrs...ask money frm my daddy .. bo bian liaos..reali no money..shuckks...

SOCCER rAwkx!!!

suddenly haf de passion 4 soccer siax..siao ger ger mi...hahas..

Monday, March 07, 2005

2dae nvr go skol..was sickk..feeling much betta liaox..nau listening 2 voyage by ayumi siax..ish a midi lars..budden chao hao ting lors...yuppx..sighh..scared tmr go baq skol den got alot of hw siax..had slight fever+cough n sore throat jux nau..morning wake up de tym i reali lyk whole body no strength lors sumre everi part of my body all verh pain..haix..cannot watch netball match lers...nvr knew michelle got ai zai bi fang siax..mux borrow frm her!!verh nice lors dat comic althou korr does not lyk those kinda comics..=x sianx..mux chiong hw liaox..esp chem..tata..

nvr c u 4 one dae niax den i sickk lers..haix..yoo r my medicine n de cause 2 all my sickness___

gort anibodi miss mOii mahs?hahas..x)

Sunday, March 06, 2005

hmm..okayy..went 2 wanjoos huse after pksss..go dere do project siax...budden lyk do abit niax..yuppx..wheex..fallen in love wibx techno music..i lurvee~ de beat..yahh...kaes..after dat went hme lors..jux nau went 2 look at my dairy..hmmm..memories of de past came rushing baq 2 mi..even those in sec1 de..bitter n sweet..hehex..sho long nvr had those kinda gan jue lerx..yuppx...conclusion i made after reading my past entries: no memories are ever worth forgetting regardless of good or bad one..hu noes..nxt tym u when u read ur entries again n those feelings wil jux cum baq 2 u..n thru tis u can learn ur lesson u noex..valuable memories..yuppx...cherish wad u haf nau..wheex...

missing euu__~

Friday, March 04, 2005

sighh..mr guang sarkk completely manx!!hurrs...his attitude n stuffs got prob lors!!hurrs...shitty hym..i find hym damn sucky at not funni AT ALL..i failed my physics by ONE markx..haix..hau can laidatt..den de tiong peng chao bian tai de lors..get 12 siax..walaux...everitym sae bvr study den goin 2 fail den in de end get verh gd marks de lors...o_Oi m soOoo pissed of wibx myself..arbish..bang my head on de wall...oh yahh..2dae a maths test..walaux!!!de qn4 ritex..i noe hau 2 do de lors den i do wrngly den when 1na change de tym den got NO TIME lors!!omg!!!noOoOoo....lose 2 marks jux lyk dat..hurrs...stupid...2dae suddenly got ying yong wen test siax..de whole klass dunno lors...chen lao shi nvr cum den nvr tell us mahs den u had 2 do de test without dic...haix...i tink i do until verh lan lorx...kaes..den got baq my hcl test...38.5....hurrs...sickening..my summary sark 2 de core..almost everithn sarkk 2dae..budden i saw hym!!!yeahh...shuai de yi mian..oh yahh..download de animations..alot veri ugly one..=xhurrs..waste my money..bill bao lerx!!shitt...oh yahh..got baq my phone bill..600+ sms...tink ish okayy lors..exceed by 100+ niax budden my daddy was lyk NO...CANNOT...sighh...suan le..mux control...sadd...

# yoo let me had a reason tuu smile *=)

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

wheex...nau blogging in skool..yuppx..wibx er jie n da jie nau...hmm..2dae change de sitting arrangement..okayy bahs...shld i sit wibx yy or tp??hmm...stil tinkin..lOlx...o level results get baq liaox..shao xun chao li hai lehs..get 7 siax..all a1 except el..haix..tink el verh diff 2 score lors..hmm..e.c get 10..tink not bad liaox..budden he ish expected 2 get betta de lors..c larx..hu ask hym nvr concentrate..=xX..kkx..not my business larx...den korr..wheex..he did unexpectedly well lorx..11 pts lehs..wow!!mi chao hAppi 4 hym lors..wahahas...yuppx..huggies..kkx..den lh got lyk 14?hmm..oh yahh..yx failed her el siax..haix..den i saw her cry lors..sadd..lh korr oso..den he sae he go hme den cry lyk siao ding dong..=x if ish mi i tink i wil dang chang luo lei lors..budden he guy mahs..sho mux act jian qiang yi dian u noex..dunno yan ling de result gd or not..she ylk disappeared siax..wonder y 4T1 & 2 nvr cum..hmm..korr lend mi his gundam comic!!wheex!!chao gd..wil take care of it de..yuppx..dun worry korr..den after dat when j8 wibx er jie 2 buy present 4 her bro..she bought a cute doggy 4 hym siax..n she bought a seal 4 herself..chao cute lehx..squishy ish its name..huggx..sho kawaii!!!x) alison oso bought one ytd n name it squashy..hahas..cute!!i oso 1na buy de penguin..budden broke lars..haix..stil owe jun hao 10 bucks siax..1na go watch movie buddenn..sighh..
2dae saw my chem paper xin qing chao bu hao...tis few daes got no appetite oso...haix..suddenly feel lyk sho darn depressed lors...hurrs..box mi!!suddenly feel lyk he cant b bothered abt mi..budden wo you she me zi ge yao qiu ta duo guan xin wo ne?i dun even noe he treats mi as his wad..my mind ish in a whirl nau..completely BLANK...pathetic siax..hau 2 cheer myself up?i m lyk getting you yu zhen liaox..haix..sick n tired of everithin...

---*plunging into darkness
who can pull me out frm there?`

[[losing my grip]]

//strong i may seem but what lies beneath is the hidden truth__